Ever notice that any time you work to make some kind of progress in your life, whether externally or internally, that there are always bumps in the road that may set you back? Ever feel like you’re starting all over again?
I’m not gonna lie: I had been a bit naive thinking how easy it would be to be positive and have gratitude about everything in life. Ha! When a character trait doesn’t “come naturally” to a person, developing said trait takes time and tremendous effort. Why would I kid myself into thinking this would be easy?
When I established this blog I made sure to commit to a regular schedule of posting to hold myself accountable; anything short of posting weekly and I knew that I would likely let my blog disappear into oblivion with other commitments I’ve made in the past (just like that blog I had over at Blogger). I am ashamed to admit that I’m a starter but not always a finisher. Each week I find myself remembering that I will need to update on Tuesday and ask myself, “What should I be thankful for? What can I write about that will both edify me and encourage others?”
For every step forward, do you feel like you take two, maybe three
steps backward? I do, and practicing gratitude is no exception.
I sit here laughing inside as I write this entry because in the recent 10 days or so, I’ve not practiced much gratitude. My attitude of the heart and the overflow have been quite opposite: I have been an expert at practicing to be a grumpy, complaining jerk. And I mean EXPERT.
The only reason that I feel compelled to even write this entry and be so transparent is: YOU. With every entry I have posted I continue to be amazed at how much you are blessed by my honesty about my struggles. So–I guess–I’m thankful for your thankfulness, and I appreciate the irony.
It’s at this point that it seems logical to go back to the basics, to the beginning. Isn’t that the very best place to start when we get stuck and feel lost?
*I’m thankful for Jesus, who died on the cross to pay the pentalty for my sins (This alone should be reason enough to give me joy in my heart, but I forget about this reason all the time).
*I’m thankful that I had time with my parents and brother for Chistmas in 2015.
*I’m thankful for a home to live in with working heat and a brand new HVAC, even if that HVAC is several thousands of dollars.
*I’m thankful for the opportunity to be at home with my kiddos so that I can homeschool them…that’s what I’ve desired for so long.
I’m going to stop there for now. Can we maybe agree with one another that thankfulness does’t easily come to every one of us? Some of us have to work really hard at it. ::see me jumping up and down flailing my arms in the air:: So would you do me a favor? Share with me here a few reasons why you’re thankful so that we can be mututally encouraged. I would LOVE to hear from you since you’re part of the reason I keep writing. 😉
Much love to you,